A Journey Toward My Greatest Adventure: Motherhood!

Everything changed when I stopped running from my fears of motherhood and started walking toward them instead.

Wild woman with her rhubarb.

Movement has been my greatest love for as long as I can remember. I thrived on the basketball court, sprinted across the soccer field, felt the power of horseback riding, lost myself in the rhythm of dance, and found peace in hiking and swimming. My body was my home, my strength, my freedom.

But in my senior year of high school, everything changed. A diagnosis of May-Thurner Syndrome shattered the identity I had built around movement. Suddenly, I was lost. The risk of blood clots loomed over me, and with it, a fear that haunted my dreams—Would I ever be able to become a mom?

I threw myself into the world of health and wellness, exploring every avenue across different demographics. I promoted movement in every way I knew—through play, nature, and joyful exploration. But deep down, the fear never left. The thought of pregnancy felt impossible, even dangerous. So, I pushed it away, convincing myself that maybe it wasn’t meant for me.

Then, one day, I made a choice. I faced my fear head-on.

I stopped chasing solutions and started listening—to my body, my truth, and my deepest desires. I changed my lifestyle completely, not just for the sake of my health but for the life I envisioned beyond fear. And while I received incredible guidance along the way, I have to acknowledge one of the hardest yet most powerful things I did—I paused. I assessed. I rebuilt my trust—not just in the medical system or those around me, but in myself.

It wasn’t easy. I had to unlearn the limiting beliefs I had carried for so long, the ones that told me I needed to be cautious, to protect myself from disappointment. But I realized those were just stories—stories created by a younger, scared version of myself. And I didn’t want to live by those stories anymore.

So, I changed my thoughts. And when I changed my thoughts, I changed my life.

Our 8 week appointment of our tiny little seed. 🌱

Through hard conversations, holistic realizations, and a massive mindset shift, I stepped into a version of myself that no longer let fear dictate my future. And now, here I am—10 weeks pregnant, stepping into the role of motherhood I once thought was impossible.

I know I’m not alone in this. There are so many women—former athletes, high-achievers, and movement lovers—who feel disconnected from their bodies and their future as mothers. If that’s you, I see you. And I want you to know that there’s a way forward—one that doesn’t come from fear but from empowerment, trust, and the right support.