As One Thinks, One Becomes

Let me say that again,

~ As one thinks, one becomes ~

In this world, it's rather difficult or at least it is for me, to solely focus on just one thing. And this has been a struggle of mine since I was little. Decisions were hard for me, but in a rather strange way. Anticipating the outcome was what I dreaded the most. However it wasn't how it'd affect me, but rather how it would affect others. For goodness sakes, whenever my parents would drop me off at a sleep over, whether it was a friends or my grandmothers I got teary-eyed and second guessed this decision. My parents would confirm that it'd be okay to go and that they'd be fine without me. I'd cry a little more (sensitive kid at that) and then make a plan with them for when I returned home. Kinda cute, right? Think again....

When I went to college I started to see this little trend of mine in everything I did. The anxiety that would come over me when deciding which dot to scribble in on a multiple choice exam was overwhelming. I'd skip the dining hall just because I'd struggle to decide what food to eat. Seems crazy right? Overtime, this would leave me feeling defeated and helpless. I isolated myself and lied that everything was okay - when it really wasn't.

As a human we have this power to choose what's best for us. While thinking of others is humble and at times heroic - sometimes we can fall short on ourselves. All that time as a kid, thinking of others first, I forgot to think about me. And overtime this thought process made it hard for me to be content where I was, who I was with and what I was doing. So, as I reflect on my personal life and where it's taken me so far I'm pretty damn proud of myself (and my parents for hanging in there for quite some time). Through all the crazy things life can bring us through, what I've come to realize is there's only one thing that you can control: your mind.

"As one thinks, one becomes."

The human body, our temple, is unbelievably complex. Our body's systems automates when we get into routine. We get into good and bad habits that make us, us. But what I want to get across to you is there is always room for change to become a pretty amazing human! YOU have that power. I don't recommend dropping everything right now just to go do what you want. Use the tool of patience to guide you. Listen to your heart and start to believe that in time everything will work out for the best. Don't let anyone, even your own wild mind tell you otherwise.

"I am strong, I am powerful, I am bold."

(Repeat this in your head with every exhale 5-10x)

This is the mantra I like to chant to myself every morning after my yoga practice. It's simple, to the point and reiterates what I need for myself to stay focused and mentally strong every damn day. Unfortunately, bad things do come, but we can prepare ourselves for those moments. If you lose a loved one, fail a test, get fired... find uplifting words that will help guide you through it. Find the words that will train your brain to be confident in every decision you make and where you go from here.

It may seem silly at first but what does that matter? What matters is how it affects YOU. What matters is how YOU react and move forward. What matters is YOU, so be good to her/him and keep going - you will find your way!